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wandering off
so i moved to blogger.de, telling myself that it's not the male form, but neutral english. whatever. you can find me as annabexis as usual.
now running to pack my backpack, to catch the plane.
so long.
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au revoir vingt-six
being quite annoyed by 20six fucking up my layout, links, entries and photos if i get this right, plus putting up commercials, i figured i'd move somewhere else and make up a new one in a hopefully safer environment, if i have to do it all again anyway. playing with different layouts on different servers but not quite satisfied, very restricted, soon to be deleted. a little sad, a naked blog laying around for a week here and there. i feel like reorganizing, getting rid of the stupid categories. this blog has only existed for a little while, a first try, not painful to abandon it. rather looking forward to pouring out some of what's been in the drawers. [this metaphor might not work in english.] looking forward to living in a new place in the (real world) too with an internet connection to babble easier. waiting for the new year, getting over with christmas. experimenting on three simultaneous language structures in my lately often abused brain. will think a couple of days on how to squeeze this into a small space like this.
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procrastination
didn't pay attention to 20six for a week and now all of a sudden it appears to be quite doomed. tant pis, i was thinking of moving anyway, feeling like relaunching my blog/identity a little. finding a new approach to blogging, because i really like it actually. write it for myself and trying to be somewhat less cryptic. reaching out more courageously these times has allowed me to realize that some people actually do connect to what i say and write.
as procrastination still appears to be my favored working approach, the female skeleton really haunts me though. we'll be over with it tomorrow, but i kinda have to write the presentation right now. like that wasn't bad enough, my pc caught a bad virus and since i deleted it, the computer keeps crashing... i can't get anything done without a nice amount of pressure.
a – yes, rather cryptic – weekend overview can be found on kristis site, in her interactive party review section.
Ms Yeahpope is getting married! i'll cheerfully throw around some rice (right!) in honour of you, no matter how well we deconstructed the whole thing, there are good reasons for partying that one.
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hach ja berlin
schön war's, irgendwie, and exhausting. a night and a day on the train, little sleep and the city painfully chilly as always in wintertime, a little hostile and welcoming at the same time. coming back here even weirder. i feel like i'm running all the time, and it's not gonna end for a while, with berlin visits at home, this weekend in zürich, a uni presentation and paper next week (on the invention of the female skeleton , moving and christmas coming up... but meeting my gorgeous friends is such a pleasure and makes me forget sleep. and it'll be good to see magda, der dritte raum and digitaline in zürich, but i don't know if i have the energy for that. plus there's been a huge raid in the dachkantine last weekend, so the mood might not be too good - or the contrary. i'll just go home if i'm too weak like i'll do right now.
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moving
coming to berlin. will
be happy to see my two readers then
i
tried imagining being back in berlin this morning and it didn't feel
as scary as before, so i decided to go despite much concern and
inconveniences such as the money, the train journey and the terrific
festival i will miss (www.urbaines.ch). anyway i am happy to see my friends above all,
the city, get a haircut, ride a bike, curse the wind, go to the
market and somehow even to meet my ex/man... to see how we can
transform this love into something less painful, i.e. seperating
while staying close, trying to be exclusive with his new love. in any
case, we both feel more free now already.
now the crazy person with the bell
runs around the library so i have to cut it out now. cu!
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cloudy frozen and calm
things are different.
weather corresponds to mood.
my
hometown is snowed in.
i
can't decide if i should go to berlin.
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tristesse creeping up
it's two months now that i'm here. two days ago it started snowing. still the sun is shining and the view on the mountains is crystal clear the lake too bright to look at. i feel at home yet strange as always and i begin to pass now and then. the bonds here grow strong yet it hurts as the most important berlin relation crumbles to the point of destruction. no going back even when i go back. facing consequences gravity restored. i seriously thought we'd survive the distance remain close while on seperate paths. return to collect the pieces left. cheerful as i am i'll put together some tiramisu now for tomorrow's birthday party and try to go out later.
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